Tarryn’s story
I sat at your tree
I sat at your tree and watched as the clock in your car turned to 12.03am, the time the first call was made to 000. Every anniversary is the same yet hauntingly different. Like clockwork, the memories come flooding back all at once, playing on repeat, and I’m standing in the corner of every memory,…
Read MoreI can still remember the phone call
Our lives will never be the same. I can still remember the phone call in the first few moments of Good Friday, a phone call that has torn our whole world apart. Please drive safely this Easter. Everyone deserves to get home safely to their families.
Read MoreQuiet Moments
There’s something in these quiet moments that make me miss him more. I know he’s with me, I feel him. Sometimes he takes me by surprise with a quiet whisper that makes my heart skip a beat, sometimes it’s a feather directly in my path, and sometimes it’s the linger of his scent in the…
Read MoreToday you would be 24
Today my beautiful boy would be 24 and I couldn’t miss him more if I tried. I miss his beautiful big smile more today than ever before, not realising that this could even be possible. I wish today could be a day of celebration but it’s simply another reminder he’s not earth side with us…
Read MoreGrief, a rollercoaster that never ends
The house is quiet. Sleep evades me yet again; it has been for some time now, and I’m exhausted. I am forgetting to breathe; I am forgetting to take a moment to sit with myself. Simmering away just under the surface are all the emotions I am trying desperately to push to the side because…
Read More5 Years ~ 1826 Days
5 years ~1826 days There is a heaviness in my heart as this day is here again. No matter how much time passes there is still a sense of yesterday and forever that rolls into one. I trace my fingers over your things in your bedroom. I pick up your hat and…
Read MoreHow have I survived this long without you?
As my broken heart continues to beat, time relentlessly ticks away. Life continues to move forward, and I can’t help but feel like it’s left me behind. I see happiness people have created. I see beautiful photos of families that people share. I see the joy and happiness in peoples lives. It makes me smile,…
Read MoreGod I miss him
God I miss him. It’s an indescribable pain that never leaves my heart. It’s the fleeting moment I look outside and see his car. It’s the initial thought and smile “Oh Jacky Boy’s home”, only to remember he’s gone from this physical plane. 1,753 days of carrying my broken heart and it’s all just too much.
Read MoreAnother year begins
Another year of putting one foot in front of the other. Walking has been my saviour. It helps to clear my mind from the chaos that grief causes and it’s how my heart finds a little bit of peace every day. This beautiful view never disappoints.
Read MoreAnother year without you
Moving into a new calendar year is particularly hard for me. It’s always a timely reminder of another year that my beautiful Jack doesn’t get to share with us and a knowing that no matter what, time will continue to take him further away from me. As I reflect on 2021, I have come to…
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