Tarryn’s story
I Don’t like Christmas
The moment life begins to slow down, and the workload eases, there comes a huge wave of grief that knocks me to the ground. I woke up today with the heaviest of hearts. Huge feelings of overwhelm and huge emotions. God, I’m feeling it all. I don’t like Christmas; and I don’t like moving into…
Read MoreSome days are harder than others
It’s one of those nights and early mornings. 2am and I’m wide awake. My mind is racing, my jaw is clenched, and the tears fall as I lay in bed. It doesn’t matter what I do, my anxiety is at an all-time high, my stomach is churning, and my heart is caught in an endless…
Read MoreHope
For anyone walking through grief, I know all too well how life can feel overwhelmingly dark and unbearable. The weight of loss, especially when it’s sudden, leaves us with an ache and pain so unbearable, we don’t know how we are going to live and breathe again. How can we, when our whole world has…
Read MoreYou would have been 26
Yesterday, my beautiful Jack would have turned 26 Eight birthdays have passed without him, and it’s a day I’ll never get used to. As a parent who’s lost a child, the absence of Jack is something I’ll never fully get used to. Each year, his birthday brings back the most beautiful memories, yet the pain,…
Read MoreMy Life Stood Still
Grief and trauma can make the world feel like it’s come to a standstill. After losing Jack, my world did just that, it stood still and the only way I knew how to survive was to self-isolate and withdraw from life. Grief can make us feel so alone and isolated, even in a room full…
Read More7 Years
Oh Jacky Boy, this is tough. 7 years, and I still have fleeting moments of glancing out at your car, thinking for a split second that you’re home, only to realise as I’m walking to your room, you aren’t here anymore. 7 years and I still can’t bring myself to wash the sheets on your…
Read More25
’25’ All the memories and all the feelings today, mate. Today is hard, it always will be. There is always a constant longing and ache for just one more moment with you, one more big bear hug, and one more “Luv ya Mum”. Today, through the smiles and tears, I celebrate the incredible life you…
Read MoreI sat at your tree
I sat at your tree and watched as the clock in your car turned to 12.03am, the time the first call was made to 000. Every anniversary is the same yet hauntingly different. Like clockwork, the memories come flooding back all at once, playing on repeat, and I’m standing in the corner of every memory,…
Read MoreI can still remember the phone call
Our lives will never be the same. I can still remember the phone call in the first few moments of Good Friday, a phone call that has torn our whole world apart. Please drive safely this Easter. Everyone deserves to get home safely to their families.
Read MoreQuiet Moments
There’s something in these quiet moments that make me miss him more. I know he’s with me, I feel him. Sometimes he takes me by surprise with a quiet whisper that makes my heart skip a beat, sometimes it’s a feather directly in my path, and sometimes it’s the linger of his scent in the…
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